
I still remember the date. Dominican Mother's Day, May 2014. I had gotten into a huge argument with my boyfriend at the time via text. I had went to church that morning. I grew up Catholic but for the past 2 years had been going to Hillsong which is a Christian church. I was picking up my niece and she had taken long enough to let me browse through Pandora when this song came on. I refused to listen to this song for a while because I thought it was about a guy. Thank God she took as long as she did because I listened to the full song. I was so upset, I started crying. I had been going to church for a while and I still was with this messed up guy in this situation where I felt like I wasn't enough. Where everything just felt miserable. The song talks about how we try to fill our lives with all these other materialistic things. And how you won't fill that void without Him. If I don't have His love along with my own, I don't have anything else. I wouldn't say I'm a religious person but I am spiritual. I believe in a higher power. But that moment was when I started to feel open about believing in God but also having a connection with him. To tell him that I needed him. I felt like I had fallen to my knees crying out, "help me, I need you!"
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